hildeguardog's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I massacred the afternoon. I don't get much thinking done these days. Another roommate and I have less privacy. Perhaps I always feel shitty this time of year. I'm failing school and I keep getting sick. I feel like I'm about to make a mess of devastating... I keep forgetting words I need to finish thoughts. I feel agitated and easily irritable. I don't know how much longer I want to live here, and I don't want to live with my mother or with my father. I want to learn but I don't want to go to school. I want to be happy but I'm not sure how. I try to do little things to get myself going in the right direction... I quit smoking and drinking and getting high isn't on a regular basis... but then I lose focus and I lose motivation and I wonder why I shouldn't be at the bottom of my barrel. I wonder why I shouldn't be swimming in addiction and then I remember... but she can't be a cure-all. That'd be unfair and unrealistic and I don't want to turn into one of my ex-girlfriends. 7:15 p.m. - Sunday, Nov. 18, 2007 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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